The Ravishing Horror...

Here i roam again and you still ain't,

time is flying by and you are still ignorant...

The way you danced that night made me numb,

your hair like a flowing river drenched me in stum...

Your hand brushed mine,

the touch took me to eternity,

you came closer making me feel your breath,

it was so intoxicating,

but it was not the time for my death...

You took my hand to put it on your waist,

and put your's on my shoulder,

ironically to the stature you were still the controller...

You closed my eyes and moved like a butterfly,

i could feel your smell,

it made me hooked to you...

It was so facinating,

but that was not my gift...

We sat in that dim corner,

where even the light of fireflies was vacant...

I fondled with your flocking traces,

it felt as if they were making me tangled to you,

still the feeling kept me marching towards the direction of fire...

You kissed my forehead,

your lips felt so fresh as a budding flower,

i went insane to that audacity...

I closed my eyes and let my soul be lost in your's,

you made me fly,

we landed on a mountaintop...

The beauty of the surrounding was ever so profound,

with you it felt like heaven,

our souls were entangled again,

stood there for hours...

Suddenly i felt that you loosen your grip on me,

i felt the wind blowing me away,

i was still lost in the trance of your aura,

till i hit the earth to be sever to pieces...

Endless Decline...

I gave away a love than again wanted to,

all the complications were made by you,

will i see you again was echoing untrue...

I stared at the skies nights after night,

to see my tears freeze in cold,

but you were never there to console...

I waited by the phone just to hear you once,

but you were never bothered...

I cared for you more than you do,

and you always ordered...

I always tried to explain my pain,

all that went in vain,

because you always gave justifications,

to prove you right and make me wrong...

Now i am not crying,

it is blood all over me,

i am tired of trying,

u still remain blind...

My eyes are filled with fire, to flame you alive

i don't know why i am not able to,

maybe you always find ways to save yourself,

or i am vulnerable to your love...

Seizure Of Power...

Wings are grown to ants,
it seems the end has come,
have they seen enough,
otherwise they will die sad,
wanting to come back again in this cruel world...



I was born in this world,
the world that's a shit,
it doesen't bother for any throat it has slit...

The power gets the respect,

whatever the aspect...

I had it all when it was my birthday,

but today i am dying...

Save yourself if you can,

if i die you will be the next in line,

you will be drained of your prowess,

thrown down from your egoistic castle to the grave with glasses...

Now, I see myself burn tonight,

collapsed like a budding flower...

I see my ending hour,

and the devil pressing the doorbell,

no one can run from the destiny,

i will realize the incandescence of hell fire,

and the world will follow,

it will embrace the seizure of power...

You Kill God...

I wish my hands were filled with a gun,

i wanna shoot the world tonight...

All these desolated pitiful cowards,

fill the air with the toxic smell of their selfish thoughts...

If i had the choice i would smack their heads with a sledge,

to kill the egocentric thoughts they hold...

They talk what they want,

and what they want is greed...

But i am just a pitiful anonymous...

Repent is what i am talking about,

if you do that i can leave your eyes...

One mistake from the god and you stop his prayer,

and the mistake you made is bigger than your tears...

When man eats man devil is left idle,

he also has a heart but you don't seem to have one...

The god is shameful today of what he created,

and you feel glad...

If he comes in your way,

you won't hesitate to kill god...

I Wanna...

I wanna love you like you did to me,
holding your hand i will show you what you can't see...
I wanna kish you like you did to me,
close your eyes I'll make u feel...
I wanna hug you like you did to me,
hold you so close you can feel my heart skip a beat...



I wanna show you what you did to me,
take you to the places i always weep...
I wanna lift you like you did to me,
higher and higher you can see where i live...
I wanna hear you like you did to me,
dark in a place no one else can hear your scream...



I wanna see you like you made me,
floating in the drugs just to calm me...
I wanna kill you like you did to me,
bury you in the graveyard next to me...
So i can make you smell my blood,
and make you feel my breath,
filled with pain given by you...
I wanna kill you!!!

The Unnamed...

Her lungs are dry,
she'd crawled on her knees.

crawled on the blades of fury,

for the crime she was judged by the jury...

For the days she lived, lie and arrogance were the weapons
weapons of her intentional fake,
all the things he had she always had to take...

Her eyes cold as frost,

drilled his body from the crust to core,
the pain she gave was more than he could endure...

These were his obvious cries,

burn my misconceptions,

let me look beyond those lies,

let me see the place where your darkest heart conspire...

Leave me some air,

for my dry lungs to repair...

Your eyes are so sharp,

they created a hole in my soul,

leave me your footprints, to get back the heart you stole...

Sublime Яepugnance...

Could feel the dark skies,
and the devil coming closer
all these years he lived by the sward...
He cut his hand to judge if he was alive,
drugs were the best companion...

One day he left it all,
threw every bottle of alcohol...
fought with the devil for his life,
which he once was ready to take with his own knife...

Learned to imagine,
imagine the beauty of thought,
brought back every feeling he sold,
even if the price was gold...

He thought it was his time,
didn't realize that his clock had stopped...
He thought he found the reason to live,
but this reason didn't let him breathe...

He tried to rebuild his castle,
but it was too late,
and he was without the phrase...

All he trusted was his will,

it also left him to a definite kill...

Finally the day has come,

his hands were sweaty,

can't return the attack of betray

it slit his throat...

He was left alone,

lost in the depth of misery,

where regret was also not able to fill his emptyness...

His Love Didn't Die...

He could foresee the future
still didn't bother the consequences,
wiped the blood shun eyes
just to fake a smile...


He knew the fallout of the destined foray
once he was told of getting murdered by his soul,
still he wanted to taste betray and denial
so he drenched his pride in the black waters...


He walked with a hope in his eyes
his heart pure as his thoughts...
He held a rose in his hand
rapped in sparkling plastic,
he walked with his heart beats growing,
his eyes blushed...


He reached nearer
his pulse crossed the normal,
he looked into those crystalline eyes
lips as red as red wine...
Moved closer hiding his purpose
he was feeling the shivers,
so he closed his eyes and got to one knee...
He was very happy
for the day he dreamt has come,
he progressed the rose with a smile on his face and closed eyes
heard a loud roar of a gun...
Smell of blood filled the scene
he was afraid that his love had died,
didn't have the courage to open his eyes
till he felt dampness on his chest,
he suddenly opened his eyes
his love was laughing on his dismay...

The Fire Still Burns...

I learned how to fall today, didn't know it will thrill you;
found out i was wrong today, didn't know it will fulfill you...
I know i am hurt inside, to weak to continue;
didn't know you wanted this debt to be paid...


I have lost my wings today, burned by your hate;
I feel my will cannot survive anymore against my fate...
I scratched my skin today, didn't expect you will smile;
but your selfism buried me in the tragic pile...


Now i am cold, too cold to feel you;
but i know the fire will burn till the image fades away...
Let it burn to keep me alive, let it burn to fuel your selfish pride...
And you know that i am dead, but the soul still wanderin;
till i find my lost emotions, till i leave my impression;
till i become strong to face you, till i convince myself to hate you;
till i take a step to walk all over you...

Provoked By Situational Circumstances...

Circumstances make a curse to the venomous rage,

like the fuel to the burning days...

Agony haunt my life,

frustration gets into strife...

Mind can't think nothing else at times,

and i don't want to but it happens,

that people get hurt by the veracious words...

Everyone is so illusioned by situation,

not able to deny the ferocious inclinations...

It seems so distant from reality,

aren't we matured still,

it puts a question on our cultivation...

Guilt is what endorses my act,

after the time it has made its impact,

mind tells me how stupid i was,

it was all said and done without a cause...

Sense is what i need at times,

when my brain is disfunctioned by simultaneous thoughts of death ,pain and serenity...

I try to control but it has the consequences,

if i acted absurd,

why didn't you fill the substance with the words..?

Cry At My Grave...

Starin at the sea will she come,

is there hope for me after all is said and done...

Anything at any price all of this for you,

all the spoils of a wasted life all of this for you...

And I can take the pain on my head,

and I can teach my will how to stand...

Even if i am buried further deeper,

I will wait for you till the end...

When i close my eyes,

i see skies filled with dark clouds,

they cry on my destiny,

they cry for my solitude...

Save me now let me be undrowned,

when every thing fall to the ground how can i stay.??

I wish you take my hand,

not to barb a cut...

I hope you open the door,

not to shut...

I wonder why you not give me tranquility,

why can't you let me breathe,

breathe and smell your lies,

it stinks i know from the circling flies...

Even so far away i can still feel you,

I am without a fault i still plead you,

but i am not here to be your slave...

Free me now,

from the illusions of mercy,

free me now,

from the heretics of future,

don't push my spirit into torment,

dig my grave in your yard,

and water it with the tears from your heart...

Hold on behind those Grey and lonely eyes,

hold on to me,

before i am forgotten by time,

dead body still screams your name...

Deathflection...

Looking in the mirror to find my conscience becomming thinner,
my acts my intentions making me a sinner, the world around me is endless and i am gettin rarer,
is it the reflection of my guilt or the venom my surroundin spilled...


I see greed all around me,
flowing in the veins...
dressed in all this greed beauty makes it lethal...
Circling over my head dreadful souls
make me feel standing alone in the brawl...
Standin alone in the fight against my guilt,
leading to a sense of destroying what i have built...


I want the answers of all my sins,
which i did and which world made me profess,
i will stand against my destruction until it makes me confess...
Every time i find you, you seem to hide behind your so called goddess,
not this time, now its time i am gonna snatch your prowess...
Tragic flickers in my head,
knocking the thoughts out of my flesh,
killing my desire and i know i won't survive,
but i choose life even if i am buried alive...

Smoke,dust,fire,thrust

blood,wound,kill,fuck

shit...

Actually She Had It...

Till now i was stuck,

drowning in the blackwaters of pain and bluff...

Thinking i have reached the point of no return,

and the only option left is to be reborn...












Then one day i met her,

although accidently but it had a metaphor...

I m still confused where she came from,

or is it that she was really there,

maybe i was carried away by the norms...












It looked as if she was designed to take away my misery,

don't know how she understood everything i said gradually...

We talked for hours as if i knew her for lives,

and shared things i wouldn't with my wife...









And than the clock struck two,

she said she had to go but we both were not finished through...

She went just to come back in my dreams,

so that we can continue and talk about what was unseen...












She came with a captivating smile on her face,

her eyes were so innocent,

pure than love...

She briskly held my hand,

and took me out of trance...












Her lips were moving,

but her eyes were focussed on me,

as if she was making a connection that was so devine,

and filled with serenity...












We shared a lot,

and it was better than i thought...

But at last it was time for her to go,

i never wanted but she convinced me though...









She looked into my eyes,

as if saying she will be there every night...

Than she kissed my hand,

and gently faded as sand...

Leaving just the feel behind,

and a hope that she will come back next time...

unnamed Feeling...

All the jives , those vibes
vibrations in my head, predications that led...
Predictions that i made,delusions i had...
Innocence in doz eyes,shadows that cried..
Are they real what i feel...


Stipulations on my side,
things i tried..
Functions defined,divaricating the thoughts in my mind...
Creations derivations,
traces of evanescence...
Implications that lead,
are they real or i feel...


Forces around,
feelings profound,
disturbing sounds,
burning grounds,
contemplating the reasons,
there's nothing to be found...
Things i do ,things i see;
leads to pain, nothing to gain...
Is that true or i feel...


Despondent i lay,
disrespecting the way,
provoked by the time,
i try to be sublime,
but that's not on line...
Quarantined to be defined,
there are things i can't find...
As if i m blind,
trying to figure out , without even being able to draw a line...
I m feeling, can it be true...??

Trance...

I've been there walked a thousand miles,
witnessed all the bloodshed under the blacknin sky...
I've reached the point of intangible stardom,
which brings agony more than magnanisum...

I was on my way to the path of glory,

when i lost my wings and fell to tragedy's foray...
Then the destiny picked me up
and buried me in the grave for me it has dug...



I was on my way to the city in heaven
when i lost my will
and my journey became still...
Then my pity got me to hell,
and i asked the way back but no one tell...



Time and again i m stuck but my doggedness brings me back,
but this time it feels it has died,
fightin with the misery searchin my lost pride...
And the agony looks rite into the eyes direct and concise
to remind me that i m still in trance...

Invitation To The Satan...

M strollin in your yard, breakin every window of your fancy car.

Settin your fuckin house of cowards on fire,makin your followers bath in the blood shower.

I feel i m by design immortal,but i'll kill every creature you've made and hang them against your portal.

I'll spit on your face and barb it bloody to disgrace.

I m lookin into your eyes and callin you a victim of my act.

I m waitin for you to come and free my soul,

From this world,this world of guilt,world of insanity that's not meant for me.

Enough i can't continue in this world filled with cruel hearts that dwells on the intentions of curse.

I know that you are comin, comin to tear me apart.

All this bitching and moaning will lead to the freedom that's the need of this hour.

I m fed up waitin,come on its on show me what you've got.

Is what i've heard true or you are just a jerk then i'll fuck you through...