The Fire Still Burns...

I learned how to fall today, didn't know it will thrill you;
found out i was wrong today, didn't know it will fulfill you...
I know i am hurt inside, to weak to continue;
didn't know you wanted this debt to be paid...


I have lost my wings today, burned by your hate;
I feel my will cannot survive anymore against my fate...
I scratched my skin today, didn't expect you will smile;
but your selfism buried me in the tragic pile...


Now i am cold, too cold to feel you;
but i know the fire will burn till the image fades away...
Let it burn to keep me alive, let it burn to fuel your selfish pride...
And you know that i am dead, but the soul still wanderin;
till i find my lost emotions, till i leave my impression;
till i become strong to face you, till i convince myself to hate you;
till i take a step to walk all over you...

Provoked By Situational Circumstances...

Circumstances make a curse to the venomous rage,

like the fuel to the burning days...

Agony haunt my life,

frustration gets into strife...

Mind can't think nothing else at times,

and i don't want to but it happens,

that people get hurt by the veracious words...

Everyone is so illusioned by situation,

not able to deny the ferocious inclinations...

It seems so distant from reality,

aren't we matured still,

it puts a question on our cultivation...

Guilt is what endorses my act,

after the time it has made its impact,

mind tells me how stupid i was,

it was all said and done without a cause...

Sense is what i need at times,

when my brain is disfunctioned by simultaneous thoughts of death ,pain and serenity...

I try to control but it has the consequences,

if i acted absurd,

why didn't you fill the substance with the words..?

Cry At My Grave...

Starin at the sea will she come,

is there hope for me after all is said and done...

Anything at any price all of this for you,

all the spoils of a wasted life all of this for you...

And I can take the pain on my head,

and I can teach my will how to stand...

Even if i am buried further deeper,

I will wait for you till the end...

When i close my eyes,

i see skies filled with dark clouds,

they cry on my destiny,

they cry for my solitude...

Save me now let me be undrowned,

when every thing fall to the ground how can i stay.??

I wish you take my hand,

not to barb a cut...

I hope you open the door,

not to shut...

I wonder why you not give me tranquility,

why can't you let me breathe,

breathe and smell your lies,

it stinks i know from the circling flies...

Even so far away i can still feel you,

I am without a fault i still plead you,

but i am not here to be your slave...

Free me now,

from the illusions of mercy,

free me now,

from the heretics of future,

don't push my spirit into torment,

dig my grave in your yard,

and water it with the tears from your heart...

Hold on behind those Grey and lonely eyes,

hold on to me,

before i am forgotten by time,

dead body still screams your name...

Deathflection...

Looking in the mirror to find my conscience becomming thinner,
my acts my intentions making me a sinner, the world around me is endless and i am gettin rarer,
is it the reflection of my guilt or the venom my surroundin spilled...


I see greed all around me,
flowing in the veins...
dressed in all this greed beauty makes it lethal...
Circling over my head dreadful souls
make me feel standing alone in the brawl...
Standin alone in the fight against my guilt,
leading to a sense of destroying what i have built...


I want the answers of all my sins,
which i did and which world made me profess,
i will stand against my destruction until it makes me confess...
Every time i find you, you seem to hide behind your so called goddess,
not this time, now its time i am gonna snatch your prowess...
Tragic flickers in my head,
knocking the thoughts out of my flesh,
killing my desire and i know i won't survive,
but i choose life even if i am buried alive...

Smoke,dust,fire,thrust

blood,wound,kill,fuck

shit...